well...

So my life has been alright but i feel like im in a colourless state. I try to do the things that "respondsible" people do .. whatever that means and it just doesnt work for me. When you get told something so many times you start to believe it and then you just become it. I'm not lazy and i refuse to believe that but when people say things to me or towards me it always does more damage then what they think because most of the time they think if they say something it'll be helpful but they do more harm then good. I have become disinterested in so many things i loved and i hate myself for it. I'm learning that its become more difficult to be who i am without someone stating the damn obvious and im tired of people asking me things about why i havent done this or that. I dont ask them why they havent done improtant things so leave me alone about it. I cant fit into everyones mold of what im "supposed" to do now, i have no timeline and i think differently then most people and i guess some just cant grasp that concept. *sighs* im done with this rant its good i can post what i think somewhere even if it doesnt make sense to others it doesnt have to, it just makes sense to me.



Iron and Wine -Grey Stables
from Woman King album